Despite life's recent shortcomings, I was doing alright. I had started the year with a new plan in mind, but then again doesn't everybody? I did not want to call them resolutions because i hated the term and everything that came attached to it. It always seemed like the recipe for failure , for me at least. Every year i vowed to shed the same 20 pounds I've been "working on" since high school... OBVIOUSLY you can see how that's been working for me.
So, not this year. This year i would take on more realistic tasks . To start, i vowed to keep my car clean ; free of water bottles , empty cigarette boxes( the ongoing resolution) and incriminating empty fast food bags... of my late night food binges, subsequent to my alcohol binges. The next thing would be my "inner self" resolution, and probably the hardest one yet. This year i vowed to stop feeling sorry for myself. I had started to create a reputation of a complaining, constant maker of excuses and justifications and this year, IT HAD TO STOP . Suuure it's been tough getting dumped three years in row and just recently figuring out what do to with my life , after attending various schools, accumulating debt ( none of which i ever graduated from ) but hey, all in the past and all minor details.
I was 25! i had 5 years to figure it right....riiiiigghht.
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