and so it is...

Here i was was again...newly single. I tend to have so much more material when this sort of thing happens AND if you know me at all, it happened more often than i liked . Some people can afford to take life changing vacations around the world, write about their experiences, and eventually get Julia Roberts to play you in a movie. But me....well i had blogging. Truth be told this breakup had taught me the importance of discretion . In a world where FB was responsible for alerting EVERYONE that you had gone from "in a relationship" to "single". I chose to go another route and simply not say a word...until now. My closest friends found out and only because i told them . Considering the circumstances (LDR) it was not the sort of breakup that people could really understand. It took me a few days and i was in it! There was no love loss and no disrespect from either party. One of the hardest parts of coping with heartache was accepting that there was not much you could have done to prevent it. I took the blame just as much as i put it on him. It's easy to become wrapped up in emotion and never really process something until you realize that it's actually happening and you're not just talking about it anymore.

Our relationship was great. It provided us with the support we needed during challenging times and perhaps that's exactly all it was supposed to be. However, the maturity of the decision did not lessen the pain of the unexpected blow to the stomach when you get dumped. BUT it did help me understand the reasoning behind it. I still wasn't sure where this would all end up, but i wasn't running to get there. Whatever was supposed to happen , would happen, without me doing anything to prevent or provoke it.